I've been super busy

Sorry everyone. I've been really busy. School just sucks all the free time out of my life!! I mean, when I'm not doing school work, I am trying to enjoy some spare time with friends. It helps me to not feel overwhelmed. Anyways, I have a lot of friends there in Memphis. I really love it there. I'm actually home right now on break. It's not too bad. It may be a little boring though. Honestly, I don't have many friends here in Paragould. I would rather just stay in Memphis, but I wasn't able to. The college makes us leave until the 13th of January. I guess I will savor the time I have here to spend with a few friends and with my parents. I wish I would have been able to go to iowa. I really miss all of my family there!! Hopefully I will be able to do that next year. It's just times like this that make me miss everyone in Iowa and Iowa in itself. I feel like I belong there. I will most likely move back there after I graduate college. Anyways, pray for me and my relationship troubles. It seems like every time I start to trust a man, they turn out to only want one thing.... It kind of sucks, but I know God will help me through it. I really really want to find someone. I just keep getting the wrong ones.

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mega super update!! covers 2-3 weeks :]

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Accomplished

Today I did what I normally do except I didn't have a class until 4:20. I finally allowed myself to wake up late!! I did not get out of bed until 10:00! Thats actually really late compared to the other mornings since I've been here! I went to the Art Center today to get art supplies with Mary and Courtney, my roommates. We all had to spend a tremendous amount of money. It was completely ridiculous. I ended up spending around 110 dollars on art supplies alone. I didn't just get whatever I wanted. I got what was REQUIRED. I just think its crazy how much money you have to pull out of your butt once you start classes. Anyways, when I got back I realized that I had to turn my work study in today before 4:30, so I had to rush over to the college. I ended up walking all the way there. It was quite a power walk. I got into my mail and filled out my work study form. Then I walked over to the administration building which is not exactly close in walking distance perspective. I turned in my work study, paid my housing for september, and filled out my form to work out at the French Riviera Spa. Its basically a gym. Then I walked all the way back to the dorms. That all together took me about an hour to do! By the time I got back, I only had an hour before class started. I went to class and got back around 6:00 tonight. Then I worked on homework until 11:00ish. Wow. I still have a lot to do on that project! Hopefully it's worthwhile in the end, because I feel like I'm over-achieving on what should be a simpler assignment. Anyways, I am off to bed because I am completely exhausted and want to get up early tomorrow and work on homework again!

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First Day of Actual Class!

This morning I woke up around 7:00. I had my first class at 9:00. I was soooo nervous. Mostly, I was just worried that I would not get to class on time or be able to find the classroom. I ended up being able to find it fine. We got out of the class early because we needed to get materials, so we could move on with the assignment. The actual professor was very sick. His back was in so much pain that he was in the hospital and could not make it. One of the other professors taught the 2-D class today. I came back to the apartment around 10:30. I tried to gather all of the materials I would need to get back to class at 1:00. The guy finally came to fix our dryer today while I was on break! Thank God! I can finally do my laundry! Oh also, I had to stand outside of our dorms for 10 minutes because my ID wasn't working to open the gate! I had to call Mary, one of my roommates, to come open it for me. I then found out that the school IDs do not open the dorm gates, just the actual college doors. I took the shuttle bus around 12:30 to head back to the college. During the rest of the 2-D class, we were shown examples and given an assignment which will be due next Monday. I'm pretty confident that I can do it. I just am stressed out about all the hard earned money my parents have to pay for all of the supplies. I mean, it's kind of ridiculous that I have to pay so much for housing and tuition and then another 500 on books and then on top of that somewhere around 100 for more art supplies! It's just crazy and makes me feel guilty even though I know I really shouldn't feel that way. Anyways I had writing class today as well which actually went pretty good. I like the professor. He's really nice and funny in a clean comedy sense. He seems like he is a very good teacher. I really hope he can help me with my writing skills. I'm kind of lacking in that area. Not so much the grammar aspect as much as the right word usage. I have to buy a few more books though so I honestly don't know how I am going to get them anytime soon because I don't have a ride to any store. I feel bad asking my roommate to take me places all the time because she has her own life and schedule and I respect that. I hope I can find a way to get the things I need soon. Anyways, I didn't do much after I got back. I watched a show with Mary called the bachelor pad which looks really funny. People are so dramatic over the stupidest things. It's actually really entertaining. Off to bed now! Oh and the pic is of me and my school ID. Nooooot the best picture.

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Today was the last day of orientation. This morning my roommate woke me up at around 6:00. We decided the night before that we wanted to go jogging in the morning. It was crazy humid outside. I felt like I could barely breathe. I am really not used to running outdoors and also on an incline. I usually jog in place for around 15 minutes a day which is the equivalency of about 2 miles. Needless to say, I was so worn out by the time I got back to the room. It was so bad that I almost passed out. I don't think ill be running outside anytime soon. My class was drawing today. We did a still life. It was kind of frustrating for me because I started out drawing really small, so I had to literally add almost everything in front of me when I was only supposed to pick two or three objects to focus on and make a nice composition out of it. I guess I am just not used to that size of paper. It was a lot bigger than what I am used to. I also hate being limited to a certain amount of time, but the professor didn't want us to make art, just learn about common misconceptions and mistakes made by beginner artists. It actually really helped. I thought I would take criticism a lot worse, but it really wasn't that bad. I hate being the center of attention during class though so that was sort of embarrassing for me. After lunch we received our IDs, which mine did not turn out so pretty. I mean it wasn't terrible, but it also wasn't the best picture of me. School pictures never turn out good for me. They never have. Okay, maybe my senior year and my freshman year were good pictures but all the ones in between and before were terrible too. I came back afterwards and took a long and awesome nap until around 5:00ish and then hung out with the roomies in the living room. I had an amazing bowl of tomato soup which burnt my tongue. It was still awesome though. I just took a shower and now I'm about to go to sleep because I have my first class tomorrow!! I'm soooo nervous right now! I hope I do okay! PRAY FOR ME! :]

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Saturday the 20th?

Last night my roommates and I went to target and got a few things. We got back and basically all of us went to our own rooms. At this point, I crashed. I was exhausted. I've been feeling that way a lot lately. This morning I, yet again, woke up at around 6:00. I think God wanted me to get up because he made me look for my phone to see what time it was. I ended up misplacing it and it took me like 10 minutes to find it. It was in the crack of my bed. By that time, I told myself that I might as well just stay up and get ready, so I did. Today in class we learned about safety and security issues and got our picture taken for IDs which I guess were getting tomorrow. We also went to a Art History lecture which was surprisingly interesting. I enjoyed it. When we came back to the suite, I crashed again and slept until 5:30. I really needed it because I had forgotten to take my medicine this morning, so I was exhausted yet again. I did take them before i took a nap, but I was still tired. Anyways, after that I exercised and took a shower. I hung out with the roomies for awhile and now I'm in my room. I'm so greatful that my parents bought me this MacBook. It's so awesome. I absolutely love it. Hands down the best computer ever! :]

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First Day of Orientation

Okay, so last night my roommates and I all watched the movie I Love You, Man. I had already seen it before, but it was still funny. We also discovered last night that our ice machine, air conditioning in one room, and dryer currently don't work! I have no idea how I am going to get my clothes washed. I tried to email the people about it, but they haven't written back to me yet. This morning was another early start. I could not sleep after 6:30. I got ready and made myself a smoothie. All of us rode over to the college with Mary. I had to go to a writing class for orientation today. We basically just went to the library and picked an artistic related topic to research and then typed a paper on it in the computer lab. I did my paper on an impressionist painting by Edgar Degas. We had to share our findings out loud. I am a really bad at speeches or talking in front of a group in general. I was so nervous and my voice was very very shaky. It was quite embarassing and my cheeks definitely turned red. I could feel them burning. After that, we had taco salads for lunch. It was pretty good. They were sort of greasy, but I ate them anyways. After lunch, I went to a time-saving class about (couldn't you guess) managing my time! It was a bunch of crap about how to manage our time. I already manage my time moderately well, so I didn't really care about what she had to say. I did listen though because it was required. Next we went to a technology information class. The lady who was teaching it was in her late 20's or early 30's. She was so ridiculous. Every other word out of her mouth was a cuss word and she made dirty jokes to keep everyone entertained i'm assuming. It was very non-professional, but she did teach us a few things about Mac computer's that I didn't know yet. I am thankful for her help, but I think she obviously could have approached it in a different manner. Anyways, I'm back now and probably going to take a nap. Later I'll be heading to Target for a few things with the roomies. :]

Ciao

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8/19/10

Today was Registration day. It went just as expected really. :] Mary, one of my friends/ roommates gave me a ride over to the college. We received packets with all of our information in them and then went for the continental breakfast. I only had a muffin because I was all nervous. New places make me nervous even when I really don't have a legitimate reason. After breakfast, we had to go to a meeting talking about the school and statistics and the class of 2014 individually. It was pretty boring but I guess I didn't expect much out of it. :] We did an exercise as a group where we threw one of our shoes in a pile in the middle of a group of people. Everyone took a shoe that did not belong to them. They were told to find the owner of the shoe and introduce themselves. I had a guy's flip-flop and it was really claustrophobic. :C

It didn't really make me feel anymore comfortable around everyone, but I suppose nothing really would. Everyone is really friendly, but I'm not exactly the outgoing type unless approached. The picture above was taken at lunch time. We had sandwiches and soda and things of that sort outside. It was pretty hot, so I didn't really have much of an appetite. After registration, I came back and took a short nap. Then I spent the rest of the afternoon reading and messing on the computer. My roommates came home recently, and we have been hanging out for a little while. I think were going to have a movie night soon. Today has been an okay day. Jesus has given me words today also for one of my best friends! I am really glad he did too! I hope my words were what Jesus wanted me to say! :]

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Move-in Day

Today is registration day. Yesterday I met all of my roommates and moved all of my things in. It was soooo hot trying to move everything in to the third floor! I slept horrible last night though which resulted in me getting up early. There were so many noises all night that kept me awake. Let me tell you, everyone is so loud! seriously. Every five minutes was a different kind of noise that startled me awake. Hopefully today will go better though. My bed was really comfy, but maybe I need to invest in some ear plugs for when I sleep! These pictures are of yesterday on move-in day! before (in the car) and after (organized in my bedroom). :]

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Night before the move.

I'm moving to Memphis tomorrow at 7:00 a.m. It feels so weird that I won't be living with my parents anymore and that I will be independent. I'm not a big fan of change. A little change is okay, but I have a hard time dealing with big changes, such as my natural environment. I packed all of my things today and that was stressful enough! I keep thinking that I forgot something, but I can't figure out what it is. I am going to miss my friends so much!! I really feel dramatic right now. Haha. I even cried a while ago. It was really embarassing. :C Oh well, I hope tomorrow goes good.

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Scott Pilgrim

It's Monday night. In approximately 32 hours and 10 minutes, I am leaving for college. I had an amazing night with my friends earlier. We went to the movie Scott Pilgrim VS. the World, and it was really unique. I love how when he found the "evil ex's", he stabbed them with a sword and they turned into coins. It was like a video game. I also loved Ramona Flowers. She was the main character. I really loved how she dyed her hair every week and a half. Of course, in real life, her hair health would be the consistency of straw if this were true. She had this cool and collected attitude and awesome style that made me wish I was her. Then i realized that this was a movie and I couldn't really be her. It's still pretty cool though. Kudos to the director of the movie. It was a keeper!! We also went to Wings to Go at like 6:00ish tonight. I had so many leftovers by the time we were finished. Geri's car ended up smelling like chicken by the end of the night. :] Some guy in Wings to Go left his number on a napkin and laid it on our table on his way out of the restaurant. It was soooo funny. It was one of those you-had-to-be-there moments. . . The way he said "this is for ya'll" and winked made it all the more hilarious. Anyways, I had an awesome day. I am really going to miss my friends!!! Thank God for facebook and texting. :]

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Recent Times

Today is Saturday and I woke up around 10:30-ish. Anyways, I wanted to let you all know that I finally got my permit!! I conquered part of my fears!! Next on my list is doing the driving portion of the test! I am sooo nervous even though I really know I shouldn't be. On another page, I am very close to being done with my painting that I have been working on all summer. I think it just needs a few touch-ups and it could be my best artpiece. :] I am not very happy with the proportion of the lamb in the painting and also the lighting on the lamb. That would be most of what I need to touch up. I am just worried that I will mess it up even more, if I try to fix it!!
Pray for me to have a steady hand while I paint!!! :]

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Sunday

Im really excited about going to college in a few weeks. In a way, I wish it would come overnight because I want my life to start! Another side of me wants to wait until I can get my license. I feel sort of inadequate since im 18 and don't even have my drivers license. It's really difficult when I continuously have nightmares about driving. It discourages me. I need to trust in God. Satan is trying to get to me!! I just know it! Anyways, it's Sunday and I feel at peace with myself because I'm trying to place my worries in God's hands. This is difficult for me because worrying is a second nature. I'll just keep listening to inspirational music so I will keep a positive attitude! :]

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Acknowledge Him!!

Matthew 10:32-39
Therefore, everyone who will acknowledge Me before men, I will also acknowledge him before My Father in heaven. But whoever denies Me before men, I will also deny him before My Father in heaven. Don't assume that I came to bring peace on the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I came to turn
a man against his father,
a daughter against her mother,
a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law;
and a man's enemies will be
the members of his household.
The person who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me; the person who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me. And whoever doesn't take up his cross and follow Me is not worthy of Me. Anyone finding his life will lose it, and anyone losing his life because of Me will find it.

Jesus wants us to love Him more than anything else and anyone else! He wants us to proclaim Him Son of God to everyone we know!!!

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Why are their so many denominations???

Matthew 7:15-23
Beware of false prophets who come to you in sheep's clothing but inwardly are ravaging wolves. You'll recognize them by their fruit. Are grapes gathered from thorn-bushes or figs from thistles? In the same way, every good tree produces good fruit, but a bad tree produces bad fruit. A good tree can't produce bad fruit; niether can a bad tree produce good fruit. Every tree that doesn't produce good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. So you'll recognize them by their fruit. "Not everyone who says to Me, 'Lord, Lord!' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of My Father in heaven. On that day many will say to Me, 'Lord, Lord, didn't we prohesy in Your name, drive out demons in Your name, and do many miracles in Your name?' Then I will announce to them, ' I never knew you! Depart from Me, you lawbreakers!'

Jesus spoke to me in this verse as a weapon agains non-believers. Satan has twisted the christian faith so that the many denominations of christianity are confusing to non-believers. He has shown me that the way to know that the belief system is true and righteous is by the 'fruit' produced by this faith! Thank You Jesus for revealing this to me!!

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You're Not Sorry

I let him go recently. It hurts but God has helped me through my feelings. I can't hide from them anymore. I'm so sick of being hurt. I'm so sick of being betrayed. Everyone who knows me knows who I'm talking about. This is the song that fits perfectly to how I feel. Click link and watch please!http://vodpod.com/watch/2851735-taylor-swift-youre-not-sorry-music-video

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I'm the Narrorator and This is Just the Prologue.

My summer so far has been anything but exciting. This is supposed to be the time of my life, where I emerge from being a child into being an adult. So far, I have mastered nothing in behavioral habits of the so-called 'adult'. I still eat junk food, watch racy shows on television, entwine myself in opinionated debates on the latest celebrities, and lazily sleep until noon. Nevertheless, I am enjoying it while it lasts. I went to Relay for Life in hopes of getting myself out of the house and also to hang out with Chelsea. Before then, I did not know what profusely sweating was. I definately found out. In fact, yesterday, the head index was 105 degrees. Anyways, Chelsea and I painted faces for approximately three hours. I mostly didn't understand why people were so willing to pay for face-paintings, when we all knew it would be sweated off. We made about 70ish dollars for Teleflora, and it was for a good cause.

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